PARP Progress & Anxiety

I started a PARP inhibitor about 8 weeks ago. The first week sucked, as my body adjusted to the new medication. This is still chemo after all, and while the side effects are far diminished compared to previous infusions, I spent the first week throwing up every morning. Once I got past that initial hurdle, … Continue reading PARP Progress & Anxiety

Certainty

Each time I get news about my treatment that isn't ideal, I find myself looking inward more. I know when I eventually share what's happening with all of you, I'll get nothing but resounding support. That knowledge has allowed me space to process my emotions in a way I never used to. * * * … Continue reading Certainty

Thoughts & Musings: February Edition

I know February is a short month, but honestly could this year go by any faster?! Things with my health continue to chug along. Recent CA-125 levels came back slightly elevated, so we'll have to see what my next one in a few weeks says before there's cause for concern. My oncologist is always pressing … Continue reading Thoughts & Musings: February Edition

An open mind

Chemo has been cancelled (yet again) and before I mentally check in to "workday mode," I find myself wanting to process what I'm feeling aloud. Welcome to my brain. I am frustrated and disappointed. I am tumbling toward the realization that this will probably be true every time this happens. Willing my blood counts to … Continue reading An open mind

CT results & upcoming travel

I learned on Tuesday that the CT showed disease activity. The nurse wouldn't (couldn't) tell me more so I had to wait until a Friday afternoon phone call to find out just exactly what was going on. The long and short of it is this: the Doxil isn't working on its own. My CA-125 is … Continue reading CT results & upcoming travel

The Not Knowing

I'm back in the unknown again. My CA-125 is rising and Dr. T ordered a stat CT last week. I don't have results yet. My 5th round of Doxil is on Tuesday. It's not surprising at this point. Remember, chronic illness. And it's not that it gets easier to hear that things aren't working. It's … Continue reading The Not Knowing

The experiment continues…

...without keto. Wait, what? Yep. We are taking a hiatus from the ketogenic diet. While it may seem sudden to some of those reading this blog, especially with all my "woohoo keto rocks" posts, the decision has not come lightly. There are are so many different reasons, and the latest revelations with Dr. Ellis brought … Continue reading The experiment continues…

How keto is forcing me to do the hard work

I recently learned within my r/keto community that -- just like Fight Club -- the first rule of keto is you don't talk about keto. Except, I can't not talk about keto. It consumes me. Maybe this will get easier? But 8 months down the road, and it's still one giant experiment. I've noticed a … Continue reading How keto is forcing me to do the hard work