There's a part of Brené Brown's The Gifts of Imperfection that discusses the idea of expectation. How if you tell yourself you have ZERO expectations for name-your-thing, that you're not actually protecting yourself from disappointment or that you don't care. Instead, you're denying yourself the joy of the thing happening or the support if the … Continue reading Okay, so now what?
The rollercoaster
The below post was written the day I received some not-so-great news in early February. I've been sitting on this news, sharing only with a few and as the weeks have passed, sharing more in person with what's on the horizon, which essentially is a giant bag of shitty unknowns. I told myself I didn't … Continue reading The rollercoaster
CT Results
Because my doctor is awesome, she got the CT results for our appointment on Tuesday. Because the results weren't what we were expecting, I wasn't ready to share until today. It wasn't clear. There's a few cysts that have appeared since my last CT and we're not entirely sure what's inside them. They appear to … Continue reading CT Results
The Last Infusion
Update 5:00pm - I'm here and ready to rock and roll. Come visit. Please!! Kaiser Sand Canyon/Alton room 411. There's a phone on the 4th floor entrance where they will let you in. Text me to let me know if you're coming. I'll be here until at least 9pm. Update 3:30pm - bed ready! I … Continue reading The Last Infusion
Two steps forward, one step back
After the initial toot heard 'round the world, there's been no additional passing of gas. Which presented a problem at yesterday's meals. Breakfast went fine, but lunch caused much discomfort. Dinner went smoother. We're not leaving until I have a bowel movement (that way we're here if there are any complications) so we're back to … Continue reading Two steps forward, one step back
Update #2
Well, the surgery is complete and Jessica made it through ok. The doc found that the mass was, in fact cancerous (more specifics from pathology analysis later this week) and a full hysterectomy was performed along with the removal of the gallbladder. Turns out, the cancer had spread to and wrecked the other ovary by … Continue reading Update #2
Well, f*ck.
Surgery has been pushed to the week of December 21st so the liver specialist can consult during the surgery. He's actually coming in on his day off, so that's pretty amazing. While this is completely annoying and my ability to wait is wearing thin, my doctor assures me this is the best for my final … Continue reading Well, f*ck.
All I can Do is Smile 