Certainty

Each time I get news about my treatment that isn't ideal, I find myself looking inward more. I know when I eventually share what's happening with all of you, I'll get nothing but resounding support. That knowledge has allowed me space to process my emotions in a way I never used to. * * * … Continue reading Certainty

Same Same

In three words, I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life. It goes on. - Robert Frost I've probably used that quote in a previous post, but it continues to be the truth, so I'm going to continue to use it. (sidenote: Robert Frost said this during his eightieth birthday celebration according to journalist … Continue reading Same Same

More quick news! CA-125 is 40!

I mean, what?! I'm 5 points from normal range, people!!! In hilariously (to me) appropriate fashion, Dr. T didn't even deliver the news, his RN Betty did. That's my barometer for knowing how serious things are or are not. Betty is the bottom rung (sorry, Betty, but you are); then Patty; then the man himself. … Continue reading More quick news! CA-125 is 40!

The Latest – October Edition

Yesterday's chemo was cancelled because my white blood cell count was too low. Yet another thing to add to the list of inconveniences caused by the addition of this new drug. However, it appears to be worth it because my CA-125 has dropped significantly! I'm down from 1348 to 160. (Friendly reminder that a normal … Continue reading The Latest – October Edition

CT results & upcoming travel

I learned on Tuesday that the CT showed disease activity. The nurse wouldn't (couldn't) tell me more so I had to wait until a Friday afternoon phone call to find out just exactly what was going on. The long and short of it is this: the Doxil isn't working on its own. My CA-125 is … Continue reading CT results & upcoming travel

The Not Knowing

I'm back in the unknown again. My CA-125 is rising and Dr. T ordered a stat CT last week. I don't have results yet. My 5th round of Doxil is on Tuesday. It's not surprising at this point. Remember, chronic illness. And it's not that it gets easier to hear that things aren't working. It's … Continue reading The Not Knowing

The experiment continues…

...without keto. Wait, what? Yep. We are taking a hiatus from the ketogenic diet. While it may seem sudden to some of those reading this blog, especially with all my "woohoo keto rocks" posts, the decision has not come lightly. There are are so many different reasons, and the latest revelations with Dr. Ellis brought … Continue reading The experiment continues…

Treatment Status Report

In two weeks, I know one thing: I don't know shit. That right there, is the nutshell of the hardest part of all of this (at least for me): the unknown. And with that comes the brain that won't shut up. How bad will I feel? When will that feeling start? Oh shit, here it … Continue reading Treatment Status Report

Things that are on my mind

First, administrative: I am not starting treatment. Monitoring will continue and we will revisit treatment when/if the time comes. And that's all I have to say about that. In addition to the above, my brain has been full of the following: WWDRPD? (What Would Dr. Rhonda Patrick Do?) A full list of supplements she takes … Continue reading Things that are on my mind