Warning: Math ahead. Well, graphs based on math. We got the CA-125 results back today, and typically, I reach out to my nearest and dearest to give them the breakdown of what's going on first before posting here. But frankly, I'm tired and not in the mood, so everyone gets to find out together. Okay? … Continue reading The latest results
I started a PARP inhibitor about 8 weeks ago. The first week sucked, as my body adjusted to the new medication. This is still chemo after all, and while the side effects are far diminished compared to previous infusions, I spent the first week throwing up every morning. Once I got past that initial hurdle, … Continue reading PARP Progress & Anxiety
Each time I get news about my treatment that isn't ideal, I find myself looking inward more. I know when I eventually share what's happening with all of you, I'll get nothing but resounding support. That knowledge has allowed me space to process my emotions in a way I never used to. * * * … Continue reading Certainty
I know February is a short month, but honestly could this year go by any faster?! Things with my health continue to chug along. Recent CA-125 levels came back slightly elevated, so we'll have to see what my next one in a few weeks says before there's cause for concern. My oncologist is always pressing … Continue reading Thoughts & Musings: February Edition
Chemo has been cancelled (yet again) and before I mentally check in to "workday mode," I find myself wanting to process what I'm feeling aloud. Welcome to my brain. I am frustrated and disappointed. I am tumbling toward the realization that this will probably be true every time this happens. Willing my blood counts to … Continue reading An open mind
Apparently, photos or it didn't happen. Here's the newest edition to our family. We're obsessed. You can follow her on instagram @peanutsblop.
In three words, I can sum up everything I’ve learned about life. It goes on. - Robert Frost I've probably used that quote in a previous post, but it continues to be the truth, so I'm going to continue to use it. (sidenote: Robert Frost said this during his eightieth birthday celebration according to journalist … Continue reading Same Same
I mean, what?! I'm 5 points from normal range, people!!! In hilariously (to me) appropriate fashion, Dr. T didn't even deliver the news, his RN Betty did. That's my barometer for knowing how serious things are or are not. Betty is the bottom rung (sorry, Betty, but you are); then Patty; then the man himself. … Continue reading More quick news! CA-125 is 40!
Just got a call from my oncologist and my CA-125 is down to 57! That's 17 points away from normal range, and a far cry from where we started (1300). Commence happy dance. And hugs. Happy holidays, indeed.
Much of why I started this thing three years (!!!) ago was to react. I was constantly reacting to information, updated news, lab tests, surgeries, hospital stays, and therapies. You know, basically freaking the fuck out about everything in my life being turned upside down. I've spent most of my life living in a reactive … Continue reading Intention