The below post was written the day I received some not-so-great news in early February. I've been sitting on this news, sharing only with a few and as the weeks have passed, sharing more in person with what's on the horizon, which essentially is a giant bag of shitty unknowns. I told myself I didn't … Continue reading The rollercoaster
The progress you don’t know you’re making
The path towards change is not an overnight one. It's a path that requires you to choose, over and over again, the changes you want to enact in your life. Some days, your choices aren't the ones that bring you toward your goal(s). Other days, they do. Every day, every hour, every second, we're given … Continue reading The progress you don’t know you’re making
Round 4 Done!
Time has been a funny thing these past few months. I can't believe I'm done with the 4th of 6 rounds (66.6666666...% complete!) and simultaneously, time seems to stand still. Or life does, in a way. The first week of treatment feels like wading through mud with the nausea and a wacko sleep schedule. I'm … Continue reading Round 4 Done!
Finding a rhythm
Yesterday was a hard day. I woke up already nauseous and, like pain, once you're behind it, it's tough to get back ahead. It took most of the morning to get myself in order, but I eventually rallied for a quick visit from my in-laws and a trainer session with one of my girlfriends. I was able … Continue reading Finding a rhythm
A Week Off!
A whole week. More than that! I don't know what to do with myself! And that, my friends, is the issue. *twiddles thumbs* Except, I have the physical energy of a slug. Anyone who has some free time in their day who wants to slug out with me a bit this week, holler at me! … Continue reading A Week Off!
The Waiting Continues…
Never thought I'd be so anxious to fart. Because it's the weekend, my regular docs are not available. I spoke with the on-call gyno who assures me that this waiting is completely normal. As long as I don't experience nausea and vomiting, we're good. It's just going to take time. The bowels freeze when they … Continue reading The Waiting Continues…
The Day Before
Update: The hubby has reminded me to focus on the things I know for sure. He calms me in a way I can't describe. In a word, I'm terrified. I'm so incredibly anxious about what tomorrow holds and am impatient to know the full extent of what we're dealing with. The past week, I've been … Continue reading The Day Before
Decisions, decisions

I chose strawberry, peach, cherry and lime. And definitely not sugar free.
We have a surgery date!
We are a go for Monday, December 21st at the Irvine Alton/Sand Canyon Kaiser facility. I won't know actual timing until my pre-op appointment. My pre-op will happen Friday, December 18th and I'll have a post-op on Tuesday, December 29th. Finally a bit of certainty in all this crazy chaos.
Pretty much.
Best cake ever. The love was overwhelming today.