The Day Before

Update: The hubby has reminded me to focus on the things I know for sure. He calms me in a way I can’t describe.

In a word, I’m terrified.

I’m so incredibly anxious about what tomorrow holds and am impatient to know the full extent of what we’re dealing with. The past week, I’ve been distracting myself from the reality of what’s to come and every time I pause to consider what could happen, reality punches me in the gut.

There are so many things that could go wrong. There are so many things that could go right. There are so many damn variables that I have ZERO control over and my Type A personality DOES. NOT. LIKE. THAT.

I finally took some time to read all the pre-surgery materials they gave me and complete an Advance Directive. That’s a pleasant way to start your morning, let me tell you.

The countdown is on.

“We are always more afraid than we wish to be. But we can always be braver than we expect.”

– Robert L Jordan

4 thoughts on “The Day Before

  1. Advanced Directive is a serious reality check. But always a good idea to make the decisions we never want to make. Kick some booty tomorrow!

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