The path towards change is not an overnight one. It's a path that requires you to choose, over and over again, the changes you want to enact in your life. Some days, your choices aren't the ones that bring you toward your goal(s). Other days, they do. Every day, every hour, every second, we're given … Continue reading The progress you don’t know you’re making
On life after trauma
I saw this reposted on Instagram, and it's pretty damn close to explaining my sentiments as I go through this. From @bymariandrew: I've been trying to draw something about living through a traumatic experience for a while, but it's a really sensitive and complex topic, so I'll just focus on this one part of my … Continue reading On life after trauma
Social Experiment
Yesterday, I busted out the blue wig. I got far less looks that when I go au naturale, but that could be because I was shopping at Japanese stores. Most people didn't give me a second glance. One woman asked if it was my real hair. Yes, this is really my hair. In any case, … Continue reading Social Experiment
In the thick of it
I realize a lot of my sorrow last round was self-made, sort of. I say sort of because there's no way I could have known what to expect (release control) but I did know that I should hold a schedule (keep control) that meant to took my anti-nausea medications on time, and eating right, etc. … Continue reading In the thick of it
Bring on the visitors + Feeling decent
I just added a sign up area to the How You Can Help page that gives you an idea of when my good days are, and can have visitors and guests. I learned today that even a simple lunch can wear me out, so I'd prefer to keep the number of visitors at at time … Continue reading Bring on the visitors + Feeling decent
When you have had cancer, it never really ends
Cancer never really leaves you. Even when you hear the words "You're in remission," a little bit stays behind (metaphorically speaking) in your mind. That tiny voice that whispers "What if?" Even my remission qualification wasn't without some hurdles. The CT scan showed something suspicious and I had to get a CT-guided biopsy to make … Continue reading When you have had cancer, it never really ends
When what you thought was the beginning isn’t actually the beginning at all
I've been in some sort of sport for as long as I can remember. AYSO started at the age of 4, swim team at 7, t-ball and baseball shortly thereafter. There was roller hockey, softball, diving, basketball, flag football, track and field... it didn't matter what I chose, I just had to have some kind of physical … Continue reading When what you thought was the beginning isn’t actually the beginning at all
An Update
I have hair on my head! Mostly. There's a solid amount of fuzz up top, and the sides and back annoyed me enough that I went to a barber shop to get a trim. I challenge any Jarhead to a better high and tight. The hair is a mixture of dark brown and gray, and … Continue reading An Update
Sneak Peek: IP Chemo Photo Day
If I had to choose a title for the imaginary book I'd write about this experience, it'd likely be called "All I Can Do Is Smile." I firmly believe that the energy you put into this world is the energy you get out of it and that attitude makes all the difference in a situation. … Continue reading Sneak Peek: IP Chemo Photo Day
The Final Push
I know the chemo is starting to wane when I can finally read my Facebook newsfeed without immediately wanting to throw up. It's a little test I give myself in the morning, and this morning I passed! Yesterday morning, not so much. For the first time since Round 2, I woke up to throw up … Continue reading The Final Push
All I can Do is Smile 