Fuck. Me. This is going to be so so much harder than I thought it was going to be. I mean, I knew it would be hard, but this is next level hard. Planning the shopping list took multiple hours across multiple days. Shopping itself took 3x longer than it usually does (and cost twice … Continue reading Tales from the front lines: keto prep day
And with one thing and another, October is nearly over. This past month felt more like *real* life than any other since chemo stopped. It's almost as though I can pretend that nothing at all happened and life has always been this way, right? Riiiiiiiight. My work on mind, body and spirit continues! I joined … Continue reading Things & Stuff: October Edition
First off, I cannot believe it's nearly October. Time, she is flying! Kenji and I had a discussion recently around perception of time and how it changes as we age. We figured out that a 50 year-old's perception of a single day is just over a week to a 1-year-old. Put *that* in your pipe … Continue reading Things & Stuff: September Edition with Added Science!
The holiday season is upon us! Just kidding. Sort of. (I'm sure Costco will have their Xmas display any day now...) It's just I like a punny title and that's all I could come up with today. Bear with me, as today is the first day it doesn't feel like I've been punched in the … Continue reading Shingle all the way
1. Health Status Report I had a breast MRI last week. Kaiser farms this work out to a 3rd party since they don't have the right set up (which is to lay face down with my boobs in separate holes, hanging). I forgot how LOUD NOISES MRI machines are, but it was painless and quick, … Continue reading Things & Stuff: July Edition
I saw this reposted on Instagram, and it's pretty damn close to explaining my sentiments as I go through this. From @bymariandrew: I've been trying to draw something about living through a traumatic experience for a while, but it's a really sensitive and complex topic, so I'll just focus on this one part of my … Continue reading On life after trauma
It's been nearly 30 days since my last post. I'm constantly amazed at how time seems to pass in the blink of an eye. There's much to report, so let's get this party started, shall we? Most importantly, we met with my oncologist today and are now officially in "wait & see," or as I'm … Continue reading 30 Days & What Have We Learned?
I have 3 days of antibiotics left no more antibiotics left and there's really no good word to describe how amazing it will be to NOT have an IV in my arm (I'm on #5) any longer. Oh, bathtub, I'm coming for you. And pool. And jacuzzi. And basically any body of water where I … Continue reading Home Sweet Home
Soooooo.... I'm still in the hospital (day 9). The fevers are reduced but still happening. My red blood cell count is normal, my platelets are still low, and my white blood cell count is pathetic but rising. The nursing staff at Kaiser continues to be amazing and that's pretty much one of the only things … Continue reading I hate hospitals but I love nurses.
Fair warning, this is a long post. To say the fourth round of my chemotherapy was difficult would be a vast understatement. The word "compounding" took on new meaning, as the chemotherapy side effects legitimately were getting worse. More fatigue, more nausea, more suck. My first week brought such intense nausea I had to increase … Continue reading The completion of Round Four and how I’ve found myself in the hospital for the past week.
All I can Do is Smile 