I recently learned within my r/keto community that — just like Fight Club — the first rule of keto is you don’t talk about keto.
Except, I can’t not talk about keto. It consumes me. Maybe this will get easier? But 8 months down the road, and it’s still one giant experiment.
I’ve noticed a cycle where I’m pumped on keto and in a groove, or I am in a deep pit of resentment and hate everything about it. Usually the hatred arrives around the same time I’m out of fresh groceries and am frustrated by the (lack of) options available to me. Or when I’m sick of the hard work it takes to follow a restrictive diet.
That’s what it all really boils down to. I am SO OVER the work.
On a grander scale, this isn’t just about keto either. It’s about my existence as a human being. All the hard work that goes into (try to) be a better version of yourself than the day before. I wish I could just coast on the previous day’s hard work, but the truth is, things go to shit when I start to relax the standards I set for myself.
“Oh, I don’t feel like exercising today, I’ll do that tomorrow,” turns into, “Why am I so anxious and why do I have all this nervous energy?!”
“I’m too tired to meal plan right now, I’ll do it later,” turns into, “Why isn’t there any #^!(@*& food in this #($(*#@&$*#(& house?!” (Be afraid of my hanger.)
Back, in March I noted the following to myself:
Hell yes I don’t want to do it. Every day, I don’t want to do the things. But if I don’t do the things, what I’m really doing is telling myself that I’m not worth it.
And I fucking am.
I have spent too much time of my life feeling that I was not worth it; that I was not enough. Unlearning that has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever done.
I am enough.
I am worth.
Do the things.
So yeah. Just a reminder (to myself mostly) to do the damn things.
All I can Do is Smile 
Girl, I feel ya. I think all I’ve survived on today is cheese and peanut butter because it’s the only semi keto food I have. Keto is HARD. I wish it wasn’t, and while for the most part I don’t miss the carbs and sugar, a part of me wants to just say eff it and eat an entire pizza, a bag of chips, or a bag of cookies. But then I remember that I like the way I feel on Keto and leave the Oreos for the kiddos.
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So true Christie!
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Great post! You can make keto easier if you just have some lazy meal days. About once a month I just buy lazy Keto stuff I can whip up hella easy like canned chicken or pork rinds and even pistachios or whatever nuts you enjoy. Then I just drink all my fats with coffee or tea and that way I don’t have to cook as much.lol. Now I’m not saying you don’t have to go to the gym but keep in mind that the great thing about Keto is your body is burning more fat than you will ever burn working out so on those days you don’t make it to the gym just remember your fat stores are still working out even if your on the couch.lol I’m very proud of you, it can be hard but you’re strong and you got this!
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Thanks, appreciate the tips, as well as the words of encouragement! 😀
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Hey hon!
I can understand the frustration of eating the same thing(s) all the time. View it as a challenge, because you ALWAYS rise to–and conquer- challenges. Find recipes that are from ethnicities you haven’t ever had that are also keto-friendly. Think outside the keto box when planning meals and then figure out how to make them keto and acceptable. There will be failures and the ones that are “eh”, but at least it’s something different. Find keto recipes for the Instant Pot (I assume you have one. If you don’t, you should. I use mine VERY regularly!)
Of course you know about serving breakfast as dinner and having sandwiches for breakfast — that changes things a bit. Make a meal of hors d’oeuvres (appetizers for the English speakers). I love the concept of “little plates”, which is basically what that is. But you know that. Are you allowed sashimi? Our local grocery store gets Ahi tuna and when it goes on sale, we have it for dinner, no cooking involved.
You’ll figure something out because you are just that fabulous. And smart. And stubborn. Oh, I mean, dedicated. (HAHAHA; you got the stubbornness gene from me.)
Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming. And have a happy–and safe–4th of July!
Hugs to you both.
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